Astrologically, I was very aware of Mercury being virtually stationary, about to go retrograde. And I remembered that I often have that unsettled, indecisive time when it is stationary. That was part of my dilemma. I had some new events I had to create and put onto Facebook. I knew it was not a good time to do it, but leaving it and starting them under a retrograde had drawbacks too. Life goes on and things have to get done even in Mercury retrograde. And, of course, the retrograde might be the perfect time to do it if I had originally come up with the idea or planned it at a previous retrograde, it would be the next stage of the process. All this was going around in my head. So I was debating what to do, and, of course ended up doing nothing.
I eventually rallied my energies into doing, knowing that if I didn't do something, I would feel even more negative later. Amusingly, as I was working from home, I ended up, unintentionally, cleaning. Cleaning therapy? Distraction technique? Yes, both of those and I have to admit that it does help to make me feel better. When something looks cleaner, tidier, smoother, less cluttered, I feel less cluttered and more settled inside.
And actually, I realised a long time ago, it is one of my ways of processing things. I ran my own retail business for several years. An extremely enjoyable, rewarding but often stressful time of my life. I clearly remember once, being at home after work, having a cleaning "blitz" (I’m an Aries, and if I get in the zone, I move fast!). My cleaning fervour was interrupted by one of my daughters asking me, in an amused tone, if someone had upset me. Yes, actually, they had!
Until that point, I hadn't realised how I routinely polished, vacuumed, tidied or scrubbed as an energy release and a way of processing. For as I moved, the thoughts going through my head moved too and found an outlet, a release, and hopefully a resolution and an eventual return to calm. Gardening can be a similar therapy for me and I often muse at the analogies I present myself with as I start out with the intention of maybe planting or repotting, but, without realising, I end up weeding or clearing some ground. Persistent, recurring weeds are uprooted and I find myself getting frustrated and even annoyed at how, no matter how thorough I am at removing them, back they come again! Often, it is not until later that the message hits home and I laugh at myself.
So, over the years, I have learnt to catch myself and look at my internal machinations if I find myself having a "blitz" on something. What is going on in my head? What's troubling me or not getting resolved? Or what am I avoiding doing and most importantly, why?
Then in a procrastinating moment, I watched a video that popped up in my Facebook feed that helped this all fit together. It was by an astrologer called Robert Ohotto. (See link at end). In this video he tries to explain Astrology from a modern, Soul perspective of having choice, and debunks some old myths. I really like the way he explained some of the concepts. And then, right at the end, he tackles Mercury retrograde and a light bulb went on in my head!.
Retrogrades are an internal process, when we are working with the energy on an internal level, rather than from outside circumstances. We have to go inside and look at things, we have to process what is or has been going on. Words beginning with “re” such as reviewing, revising, reworking, reassessing plus any others that you can think of.
Robert gave me the nugget to put with this. He said, with Mercury, it is a time to listen. Of course, what is the most important part of communication? Listening!! How many times have I said this to clients when I have seen an over-emphasis of Mercury energy in their chart, when there is a propensity to talk too much? Mercury retrograde is a time to listen to ourselves, our inner voice, our Soul whispering to us and to review where we are. Robert went on to say that when the stereo-typical Mercury retrograde things happen such as our computer crashing, journeys bring delayed etc it is giving us time to think. It is slowing us down, making us get out of our own way, to get out of the head and into the heart and intuition.
So, in true Mercury style I am passing on this information I have gathered. And I am grateful for the new information, for the different perspective I have gained and for the different perspective that has given me on my internal machinations. Over the next 3 weeks, when I feel unsettled or uncertain, I am going to make time to listen, to go within, to see what is really going on, what it is my Soul is trying to tell me. And then, adjust the sails accordingly.
Do you have any Mercury retro stories?
Robert Ohotto’s video;