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Insights for the Full Moon and Lunar Eclipse 7th August 2017
As the credits on the movie rolled, he tried to pour another drink, but the bottle was already empty. He threw it down in despair and anger but couldn’t be bothered to get up to see if there was another. He hadn’t eaten, but wasn’t hungry and had no real idea of whether it was morning or afternoon. The alcohol had blurred the edges of both time and painful memories, enough to replay the movie one more time and for the feelings of glory and adulation, watching himself on the screen, to outweigh the bitterness, rejection and depression that followed being seen to be ‘past his prime’. He taunted himself yet again by recalling how a younger, ‘cooler’ version of himself was now the pride of the movie company, sneering at the image in his mind of this tanned, muscly upstart and the way everyone fawned to him. Jealousy raged through him and prompted the need for another drink to dull it. He stirred enough energy to search out another bottle, looking for solace in its liquid depths.
Day after day he replayed the old movies, re-read the praise in the old newspaper cuttings and magazines and held and recalled the feelings of being in the spotlight as he admired the awards that would be dusty, were they not handled so regularly. The ringing of the phone interrupted his thoughts and he glanced at the name on the screen. It was his agent again. Did she never give up? She had been trying to persuade him for weeks to take up an offer at a drama school to teach. Didn’t she realise that he wanted to be ON the stage, not surrounded by all the young, fresh wannabes? Was he really seen as so old and past-it that nobody could offer him a role? Surely there were some decent parts for more mature men? Even thinking about himself that way made him wince but he knew he avoided the mirrors in his apartment, afraid that the hints of grey and lines of age reflected back to him would confirm that his own youth and exuberance had long since passed. He ignored the phone and decided to replay another movie. They made him smile and feel young again, even for a short while…..
This Full Moon is also a Lunar Eclipse, a time when the Moon is wholly or partially obscured. There are many contrasting elements, both challenging and helpful and the key energy is detachment, the ability to step aside or to rise above to see the bigger, more humanitarian picture, to see how we can play a role in the bigger picture, rather than out of self-interest. We need to let go of old patterns of thinking and the need for praise, to no longer look for responses from others to feed our ego or help us to feel good about ourselves. Needing approval can become a very negative trait, a comfort zone that loops around, feeding itself and can be difficult to break. Reliving the ‘good old days’ keeps us locked in the past.
Old keys won’t open new doors
If we are no longer in the spotlight, even if it is a small, self-imposed one, it can feel lonely and we can feel lost. We can try desperately to recreate those feelings, but the key to moving forward, to letting go of the need for special attention is to understand the need for change, to know when our role needs to change, to know when it is time for others to take centre stage, and instead of feeling bitter and resentful, there can be a role to play in passing our skills on, encouraging those who follow, supporting others rather than being the spotlighted player on the stage.
There are patterns playing out in the chart that can help us to challenge our thinking on ancestral beliefs and patterns, or those inherited from society or religion. We can recognise that we no longer have to follow on the traditions of generations before us or what we were brought up to do. We can discard what is not authentic to us and create our own inner authority and live guided by our inner light, our Soul.
You will never be able to start a new chapter in your life unless you stop re-reading the last one.
In order for growth to take place, there has to be room, and if things are rigidly kept in place, contained within self-imposed barriers, no growth can occur. If we keep those limits firmly where they are, we can feel certain and in control but this is a false sense of security. Fear of rejection can fuel the need to keep those barriers in place, or it could be the fear of being controlled or not being in control. There is an added layer of idealism and escapism within the chart that make it difficult to see the reality of the situation.
In order to move on, in order for things to change, we have to make an adjustment, and in this case, it is to our thinking. If we are unhappy with something, we are holding ourselves in victimhood if we fail to speak out, speak up or take action. Feeling that there is no point in fighting our corner, as we won’t win anyway, can create a stagnation in both our minds and bodies that makes us feel even less inclined to take action, whereas the only way to break that stagnation is actually to do something. If we don’t change things, things don’t change.
Ego has become a negative word, something that we should banish, something that is unhealthy and selfish, too self-interested, whereas a healthy ego, a positive sense of self-esteem, confidence and self-identity is a very positive thing and essential to being true to ourselves. When ego becomes inflated and breeds pride, arrogance and vanity it is very unhealthy. As the Sun shines, we too need to shine our own light, and with the Sun in Leo, its natural home, and the time of year when the Sun is strongest, this is the time when we can shine our brightest. Each one of us can shine our light out into the world, and in doing so we help to light the way of others. The light doesn’t have to be so bright that it dazzles, but it can be a warm, welcoming, encouraging light, shining brightly with confidence.
One light in the darkness lights only a small part of one path, but if many lights shine, the whole way can be lit, helping us all to find our way.
Wishing you the brightest of Full Moon blessings.
© Terrie Celest www.astrologywise.co.uk
Astrological detail of the Full Moon chart 7th August 2017
Full Moon occurs at 19:10
Partial 19:20 Lunar Eclipse
Sun opposes Moon (Full Moon). It semi-sextiles Mercury, Moon inconjuncting it, conjuncts Mars with Moon opposing it, sextiles Jupiter with Moon trining it, widely trines retrograde Saturn with Moon widely sextiling it, closely inconjuncts Neptune with Moon semi-sextiling it and sextiles Pluto with Moon semi-sextiling it.
Mercury sextiles Venus, closely semi-sextiles Mars, opposes Neptune and very widely trines Pluto.
Venus semi-sextiles Mars and trines Neptune.
Mars inconjuncts Neptune and Pluto.
Jupiter sextiles retrograde Saturn, inconjuncts Neptune and very closely squares Pluto.
Retrograde Saturn very widely trines Uranus, and very widely squares Neptune, semi-sextiles Pluto, trines North Node and sextiles South Node.
Retrograde Uranus trines North Node, sextiles South Node and very closely semi-sextiles Chiron.
Retrograde Neptune sextiles retrograde Pluto.
North Node inconjuncts Chiron.
There are two Yods, Sun, retrograde Pluto and retrograde Neptune and retrograde Neptune, Sun and Jupiter.
There is a Grand Fire trine between retrograde Saturn, retrograde Uranus and the Sun with North Node.
There are three depositors of the chart, Sun, Mercury and retrograde Neptune.
There is high Fire energy and low Earth.
Sun 15°25” Leo
Moon 15°25” Aquarius
Mercury 10°27” Virgo
Venus 8°17” Cancer
Mars 11°44” Leo
Jupiter 17°57” Libra
Saturn 21°26” Sagittarius, retrograde
Uranus 28°31” Aries, retrograde
Neptune 13°35” Pisces, retrograde
Pluto 17°27” Capricorn, retrograde
Chiron 28°55” Pisces, retrograde
North Node 24°38” Leo
South Node 24°55” Aquarius
© Terrie Celest www.astrologywise.co.uk